Not Without Material

Thank God.
Past few months has seen me scrounging for ideas. Of course, between TV, MTG, and Fallout 4, I haven't done much in the way of facilitating creative output.
Past few weeks, however, I have used more constructively and have nearly completed the first episode of the new season.
I'm so stoked.
Hell, had some very uncomfortable family run ins this past weekend. BONUS MATERIAL!  Recording this week.

Until then...

Getting there

I have been brainstorming episode 1 of delicate wrinkles season 2. On to the outline stages. Going to discuss Impulse Control. Among other things.

Relate with Me, Damn It!

I have pushed people away.
"No shit. We all have at one time or another, yeah?"
Perhaps. However, even decades after the fact, I obsess over relationships that once were and those that could have been.

Obsessing

So, I created an account with an MTG trading service. Really great way to save on cards. However, the mail...that dreaded mail has me obsessively checking my cell. Did they receive my trade? Did they send a trade? I need to put my phone away for a bit.

Until sanity returns.

Failure

But what if I am wrong
What if I fail...

Irrational expectations due to parental misguidance.

It is time to press on, folks. To move past my inferiority complex and do what I do.

I cannot promise dates or a specific timeframe, but I am working on episodes for Season 2.

So far, I have a lot to discuss.

Mistakes

The fear of a mistake causes pause.
More than pause, really. I freeze. Before pen hits paper, the fear cripples me. So then I procrastinate. I dread. I procrastinate some more.
The weight of the world buries me.
Why?
Because I was always wrong as a child.
It makes a difference.

Perfectionism

I fear making mistakes. This explains my increased procrastination when the pressure of a story or podcast gets real. I hide in safety:
Books
Video games
A facade, sure, but without the possibility of a life altering mistake.